So before I came to Grandma's I grabbed one of my dad's book called The Magic of Thinking Big. Which is all about thinking positively of yourself, having a vision, which would all help you become rich and successful and all that jazz. I thought it would be good for me to read, especially when my work-social life is not as good as it is.
As soon as I got here though, I picked up a Meg Cabot book, Every Boy's Got One. Hilarious chick lit about one NY Journal cartoonist traveling through Italy, acting as bridesmaid for her eloping friend, while fighting with said friend's hunky best man. Yeah. I'm already halfway through it, and it's not even evening yet!
I need to go to Italy. Reading about cliff-top cities and fizzy wine and melt-in your mouth pasta is giving me that itch to travel. SIGH When?! Will definitely bother F soon with my latest read! It'll be like that time when I was busy reading 50 Shades of Grey.
Sat down with Wan through an episode of Melodi. Sharifah Aini dazzled us with her recent look, if you know what I mean.
Ja asked me if I wanted touch up my hair color at this Aunty-ish salon she always go to. Told her I'm all about accompanying da boss aka my Gran today. Lazy Sunday.
She's praying her Zuhur now. Shall get back to my book!
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Once again, hello
So this is how it goes. I've decided not to beat around the bush with cryptic entries, that even I won't be able to understand five years down the line.
Let's get real.
I am almost a quarter century old, and that's reaally old. Really. And I'm not getting any younger. *Dramatic pause*. A lot has happened since I stopped writing nonsensical and entered what you may call "adulthood". I got married, for instance.
Just kidding.
But I did enter the cold, heartless world of adulthood, got myself involved in some corporate mess, in a universe that is entirely different to me. After a year of being a management trainee at one of South East Asia's best media conglomerate, I am now an E3 level executive scrambling to get my wits together. It's tough, and what did I learn in college? Bacteria, viruses, psychology, and that I could be anything I want to be once I graduate.
Such is life. Never expect things to go your way, because they won't. "The world doesn't revolve around you!" my dad used to remind me. And yes Dad, you are right.
Anyway, at this juncture, there is now no turning back. Just forwards.
That being said, I do have a lot to be thankful for. My two-year relationship, for one. New friends I have made, and new-found freedom that came along with a salary.
Some things are not the same though. My aunt's passing left a sort of unspoken sadness in the family. She was such an angel. I miss you, Mak Ngah. Wan is also not feeling well these days.
I used to feel like returning back to Malaysia meant returning back to my childhood. To things as they were. But all around me life is changing rapidly, and sometimes I feel lost.
Am I doing the right things? Am I living the right way? I have made many decisions on a whim, for my own benefit. Is my happiness more important than others'? So many other questions.
Well, this is my life now. And on that note I shall end this entry, the first of many to come, for 2013.
Let's get real.
I am almost a quarter century old, and that's reaally old. Really. And I'm not getting any younger. *Dramatic pause*. A lot has happened since I stopped writing nonsensical and entered what you may call "adulthood". I got married, for instance.
Just kidding.
But I did enter the cold, heartless world of adulthood, got myself involved in some corporate mess, in a universe that is entirely different to me. After a year of being a management trainee at one of South East Asia's best media conglomerate, I am now an E3 level executive scrambling to get my wits together. It's tough, and what did I learn in college? Bacteria, viruses, psychology, and that I could be anything I want to be once I graduate.
Such is life. Never expect things to go your way, because they won't. "The world doesn't revolve around you!" my dad used to remind me. And yes Dad, you are right.
Anyway, at this juncture, there is now no turning back. Just forwards.
That being said, I do have a lot to be thankful for. My two-year relationship, for one. New friends I have made, and new-found freedom that came along with a salary.
Some things are not the same though. My aunt's passing left a sort of unspoken sadness in the family. She was such an angel. I miss you, Mak Ngah. Wan is also not feeling well these days.
I used to feel like returning back to Malaysia meant returning back to my childhood. To things as they were. But all around me life is changing rapidly, and sometimes I feel lost.
Am I doing the right things? Am I living the right way? I have made many decisions on a whim, for my own benefit. Is my happiness more important than others'? So many other questions.
Well, this is my life now. And on that note I shall end this entry, the first of many to come, for 2013.
Monday, April 9, 2012
I had too much chicken lately
Recently, a lot of things seemed contrived to me.
I wonder if I have turned into a possessive bitch as of late. Symptoms include kuat merajuk as pointed out by my bf, referring to the times I get moody (although only slightly) when we cannot see each other. It bothers me in a way, because I am not used to being like this.
I never tell him, but it really ticks me when he doesn't pick up my call after a whole day of not communicating. Sure, we talked till 3am last night, and when I called it's already almost 2am but still...
Maybe I am that insecure? I dunno. I don't care if he's got other chicks. That's for him to fess up, I'll think of what I'm going to do about that later (omg, Harakiri kot?). It's just. I don't know any of his friends or family members personally, so what if something were to happen to him? What if I don't get to know?
I guess it's difficult now when I finally felt like I have found someone worth fighting for. It's that feeling that swells up your chest and make you feel butterflies, sadness and vulnerability all at the same time.
A friend posted this as a note on Facebook. And I almost cried, boleh tak? :( He does 99% of these things... sigh.
Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.
When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
Give her your attention
When she pulls away
Pull her back
When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared
Protect her
When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does
When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers
When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"
If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will :
Call you
Kiss you
Love you
Text you
Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend.
Girls post as: "A real boyfriend"
I wonder if I have turned into a possessive bitch as of late. Symptoms include kuat merajuk as pointed out by my bf, referring to the times I get moody (although only slightly) when we cannot see each other. It bothers me in a way, because I am not used to being like this.
I never tell him, but it really ticks me when he doesn't pick up my call after a whole day of not communicating. Sure, we talked till 3am last night, and when I called it's already almost 2am but still...
Maybe I am that insecure? I dunno. I don't care if he's got other chicks. That's for him to fess up, I'll think of what I'm going to do about that later (omg, Harakiri kot?). It's just. I don't know any of his friends or family members personally, so what if something were to happen to him? What if I don't get to know?
I guess it's difficult now when I finally felt like I have found someone worth fighting for. It's that feeling that swells up your chest and make you feel butterflies, sadness and vulnerability all at the same time.
A friend posted this as a note on Facebook. And I almost cried, boleh tak? :( He does 99% of these things... sigh.
Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.
When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
Give her your attention
When she pulls away
Pull her back
When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared
Protect her
When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does
When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers
When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"
If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will :
Call you
Kiss you
Love you
Text you
Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend.
Girls post as: "A real boyfriend"
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