So this is how it goes. I've decided not to beat around the bush with cryptic entries, that even I won't be able to understand five years down the line.
Let's get real.
I am almost a quarter century old, and that's reaally old. Really. And I'm not getting any younger. *Dramatic pause*. A lot has happened since I stopped writing nonsensical and entered what you may call "adulthood". I got married, for instance.
Just kidding.
But I did enter the cold, heartless world of adulthood, got myself involved in some corporate mess, in a universe that is entirely different to me. After a year of being a management trainee at one of South East Asia's best media conglomerate, I am now an E3 level executive scrambling to get my wits together. It's tough, and what did I learn in college? Bacteria, viruses, psychology, and that I could be anything I want to be once I graduate.
Such is life. Never expect things to go your way, because they won't. "The world doesn't revolve around you!" my dad used to remind me. And yes Dad, you are right.
Anyway, at this juncture, there is now no turning back. Just forwards.
That being said, I do have a lot to be thankful for. My two-year relationship, for one. New friends I have made, and new-found freedom that came along with a salary.
Some things are not the same though. My aunt's passing left a sort of unspoken sadness in the family. She was such an angel. I miss you, Mak Ngah. Wan is also not feeling well these days.
I used to feel like returning back to Malaysia meant returning back to my childhood. To things as they were. But all around me life is changing rapidly, and sometimes I feel lost.
Am I doing the right things? Am I living the right way? I have made many decisions on a whim, for my own benefit. Is my happiness more important than others'? So many other questions.
Well, this is my life now. And on that note I shall end this entry, the first of many to come, for 2013.
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